I have a real problem with just "being". My brain is rarely in the present and, to be honest, it is usually in the future trying to solve problems that don't exist yet.
What I really need is to just be present. Every Saturday I have the intention of organizing and cleaning my house but what usually happens is that I start thinking about what I should be doing. "I really should go visit my parents. I should go to the grocery store. I should...etc." That is when my brain starts smoking and I sit down and watch PBS Create. I become overwhelmed with a sense of guilt and, frankly, such a sense of overwhelm that I procrastinate. Procrastinate is my middle name. Heck, Procrastinate is my first name.
Maybe ol' twitchy eye (Day 10 of my eye twitch) needs to commit to practicing Mindfulness and living in the present. I need to learn to just observe the chatter in my head and ignore it.
Is this just a Julie problem? Does anyone else have a problem with should???? If so, help me!
"Should" often keeps me from doing anything in the present, too. I'm not sure, but it may be a universal problem. Usually, if I can force myself to start on a task instead of procrastinating, I become a whirlwind and power through a whole bunch of tasks that I've been putting off. That's such a great feeling. It just takes that first step. Do it, then keep on going.
ReplyDeleteBecause deep down you don't want to organize or clean your house. Well that's me....
ReplyDeleteTo help with the eye twitch.... Its just stress, put a very warm compress on it a few times a day and it will go away. Your friend, Sandra