Those of you who know me will be really proud of me. Someone I really care about asked me to volunteer to help her out at church this year and I said no. I never say no. Even when I want to say no, I say yes. I told her the truth....I deal with anxiety and I want to just focus on my job, my 2 Sunday children's classes and taking care of my parents. I really believe in the program that she asked me to help with but, I realize that I can't say yes to everything that I care about. I have to learn to say no when I need to say no. At first I had this overwhelming sense of guilt - even though I knew I had nothing to feel guilty about. I realized that my feelings were lying to me and that I was just going to have to sit with that feeling for a while. I still wish I could help, and physically I could, but mentally....I don't need an extra weekly commitment.
This was my mom yesterday. A family friend with a large garden called and asked Mom and Dad if they would like to come get some corn and tomatoes. Dad and Daniel rode over and picked up several dozen ears of corn. Daniel helped Mom shuck the corn and here she is showing it off for you.
This morning I took Mom and Dad to Dad's EKG appointment. After his EKG, the Nurse Practitioner came in the office apologizing profusely that they had messed up (we had no idea). He was supposed to be scheduled to see an electro-physiologist but he was not. His cardiologist wants him to see an "electrical specialist" to see how to deal with his slow heart beat which is averaging around 48 bpm. He will now meet with a specialist next Friday (the 20th) to decide if he needs an ablation or a pacemaker. Dad seemed a little excited because he feels this will give him more energy and cause him to have less weak spells. Me...I'm cautiously optimistic but also secretly terrified about him having another heart procedure. The "routine" procedure he had last August did not go so well.....
Here's another picture of my Mom showing off her corn because well, she's just so cute.
Several years ago, someone dumped a kitten at the front door of my church before Sunday morning services. My sweet friends, the Petty's, took the kitten home and named it Tom. The Petty's are in Florida this week and asked me to drop by their house to visit with Tom. Meet Tom Petty:
Also this. I saw this meme on Instagram and had to post it. This pretty much sums up what I do. Except for this week. This week I bought 4 bananas on Sunday night and so far I have eaten 2.
Good for you, Julie! It's really hard to say no to a good cause, but you'll do no cause any good if you're overbooked and overstressed. A guilt trip is one trip you don't need to take.
ReplyDeleteWhat is your Mom going to do with all that corn? Love Tom Petty (the cat)! And I sure can relate to that banana meme.
Thanks for the reassurance! Mom said she is going to freeze most of the corn. She had just finished putting some up when I called her at lunch. She was really proud.
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